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I wish I was a real wordsmith.


I’m feeling a bit analytical today sitting in a towel on my bed with a burnt tit (don’t ask) and decided to add to my list of favourite quotes taken from film, TV shows and fiction. They’re all kind of morose obviously but are, for the most part, kind of pretty.  Most of these have stuck with me because they are something I can relate to, but they are expressed in such simplistic or beautiful ways that I would be lucky to able to articulate myself.

 “If trouble comes when you least expect it then maybe the thing to do is to always expect it.” ― Cormac McCarthy, the Road.

This is my motto for life. Just wait for the shit to hit the fan because it always eventually will.

“….and sometimes I think I have felt everything I’m ever gonna feel, and from here on out I’m not gonna feel anything new… just… lesser versions of what I’ve already felt.”-Theodore, Her

This really struck me. At this point in my life nothing really excites me. Nothing is new like when you were young and experienced everything with pure intensity. Like nothing had worn you down into your present state of scepticism and numbness. It’s almost accepting that nothing will ever be any better than it was but also makes you question whether these feelings are polluted through nostalgia. It’s true and it’s bleak and it’s beautiful.

“It’s a bridesmaid’s dress. Someone loved it intensely for one day, and then tossed it. Like a Christmas tree. So special. Then, bam, it’s on the side of the road. Tinsel still clinging to it. Like a sex crime victim. Underwear inside out. Bound with electrical tape.” – Marla Singer Fight Club

G’wan the Marla. Everything is temporary even if it is beautiful.

“It’s impossible to say a thing exactly the way it was, because of what you say can never be exact, you always have to leave something out, there are too many parts, sides, crosscurrents, nuances; too many gestures, which could mean this or that, too many shapes which can never be fully described, too many flavors, in the air or on the tongue, half-colors, too many.”― Margaret Atwood, The Handmaid’s Tale

Accurate communication is impossible. Particularly when emotion is involved. Two people can have two very different conversations and interpretations using the same words. People hear what they want to hear.

“I would rather do nothing for the rest of my life than have my name attached to something mediocre.”— Adam Sackler (Girls)

So why try, right?  Mediocrity is everywhere and it’s so boring.

“It’s so hard to forget pain, but it’s even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace.”
Chuck Palahniuk, Diary

We never learn from happiness. Your memory can pick and choose what you remember. It may not always be the bad but the good can be romanticised.  Good things don’t really leave you with anything.  Bad things mess you up and teach you things (well, hopefully).

“You know, from what I’ve seen, at twenty you know you’re not going to be a rock star. By twenty-five, you know you’re not going to be a dentist or a professional. And by thirty, darkness starts moving in – you wonder if you’re ever going to be fulfilled, let alone wealthy or successful. By thirty-five, you know, basically, what you’re going to be doing the rest of your life; you become resigned to your fate.”
Douglas Coupland, Girlfriend in a Coma

Depressing but true.  The older you get the less you can do.  Your choices are limited and what you thought you would never conform (babies, marriage etc) to  can become the new pointless focus of your life.

“I want to change my punctuation. I long for exclamation marks, but I’m drowning in ellipses.”
Isaac Marion, Warm Bodies

I wish I was more articulate in real life situations.  I know this is coming from a zombie’s perspective but I have a difficult time getting the right words out in real life to express myself.  Beautiful quote to describe a very human problem.

 “My ambition is handicapped by laziness” ― Charles Bukowski, Factotum

I’m going to go with the fact that I haven’t really accomplished anything with my life stemming from my laziness.  Not that I am actually lazy but that I never try to the fullest of my potential – I coast along – and it is probably because then I always have a disclaimer for failure – ‘Well…I didn’t try THAT hard’.

“Beneath me, this awful city, it screams like an abattoir full of retarded children. And the night reeks of fornication and bad consciences.” -Alan Moore, Watchmen (Rorschach)

‘it screams like an abattoir of retarded children’ is an amazing image. Seriously, imagine it.


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